The End Of Holiday.

30/12/2011 .

My break is almost finish..

now study are left . The whole break I've been bored in my house. If not I'll be at my cousin's or grandparent's home. But when I have this injury on my feet, I can't seem to walk around much. All the plans with my friends need to be cancel. Hope I get better tomorrow so that I can RIDE the twin bicycle with My Best Cousin <3 I wouldn't want to let her down.

Anyway, its been days since I'm like this. All I could do is sit down , watch TV, surf the net..

So, basically I'm watching this anime online.. And WOW I'm nearly finishing it. This just show my life is dull . Even on holidays like this :( huhuh

I'm like a zombie now. My brain doesn't work for so long..all I do is stare...bad huh? I know.

So much for my goal for next year..erm,well...I thought of studying a little this december..but seems like december is living me now and fast. Talk about study this break... MY HOMEWORK!! Oh shit I beeter get help..now I remember theres alot and I can't copy it in time to send it !

Aaaarrggghhh!!

Tee Hee . Thats what I get for delaying huh. hmm... ^~^

My Mistake.

Dear readers,

I am sorry if theres been spelling errors or some words that you just can't understand here. I'm just a lil frustrate and I wrote to fast without even read the post before pressing 'post' .

So, I'm sorry guys... I will definately try my best in the future.

Tee Hee , Love you readers. You give me support to right even more.

P.S. I put Avril Lavigne's song as my music here is because my first espression is I'm angry and alot more emo..but hey, now I've move on ...I guess...well,trying :)

Feeling Unwanted hurts.

Feeling unwanted really does hurt. Especially when it came from the ones you love.

I, have always have the stare look over me. My grandma's sisters are not marry. Theres 3 of them,one died when I was so young. So, basically these women have their own favorite .Most is boys. BOYS BOYS BOYS! I don't mind it actually..but please don't show that much to the one here. You both are going on a trip to Singapore and requested only boy.no girls. WHAT A SHAME ON YOU!

Whatever I did are wrong in your eyes. I cut my lil sister's hair cause my mum ask to. I don't need a praise from you ATALL. But you don't have to make that shit face of yours. Its like you disgusted with me.....and F.Y.I that really does hurt me deep.

I wanted you to know..but how I wish my tongue won't curl up and stop me from saying awful things. Respect you I must..I just wanted you to feel how much it hurts me, thats all.

So you know your mistake and never do it again.

Also! criticism me with that other side child(somehow relative to me) SAME age. SAME AGE! So you like to see which is better. Hell this is family that both are the same. Shes not even my cousin..my aunt but same age,my mum's cousin. So don't care!

I prefer the other side family.Although they are not rich or top to trend, kampung a lil. But at least they don't hurt my feelings at all !

Tee Hee !

I AM NOT A SOCIAL GIRL. EVEN TO MY BIG FAMILY.. *IThinkINeedHelp?

A Gift for a friend.

So, today I bought a gift for my dear friend. To tell the truth, we're not that close to each other. Lets say its just an excuse for me to go and meet up with my long lost friend...kinda like that..haha.

We search everywhere for the perfect present. We heard the birthday girl likes Pooh. So we want a very big Pooh so she can hug it in her dreams or so we plan. The birthday girl has a very small body . Well, small enough for a high school girl. But what the heck.

We have our tea time at Chicken Rice Shop,Ninth Evenue . The service is SUPERSLOW! Don't ever go there guys. I've been there before and I thought it will change the better..but I was wrong.. Its a good thing I don't mind sitting there talking with my friends. If not, I'm sure to call the manager or maybe fire them all.WUAHAHAH! like I have the power to do so..hmmm... but it won't hurt to try ,right?

OH YA! my feet have 'nanah' ....ya, ofcause it hurts..so I have a good time sitting down . Incase you never know..I've been sitting and lying all day since last wednesday ...pity me..huhu.

Anyway, moral of the story??

I have fun !! Woohoo! not like last time..I don't really know why I didn't..maybe i'm sored out.

Plus, the party is gonna be a surprise party at alamanda next week. Hope its gonna happen. You know for a 16 year old girl..can't drive..this is a major thing to think through.

Tee hee!

Comic Fiesta Convention 2011

Kyaa!!!

I missed it!

Oh how I wish I was there. I heard its pack with people and some waited in line to get in about 3hours and ended up sold out. Gggrrr!

But the best thing is some cosplayer are standing outsite of the building and the fans can take picture with the cosplayer. What A haven it is to see them real live other from inside the TV. Although the cosplayer are NOT the exact person, and not as cute as they are in the TV, they sure have guts to wear them and show off it to Ota-kun.huhu

Next year I am sure to go there without any dought! With cosplaying myself. Fuhuhu~

I don't care if the date is on my SPM. I'll just sneak out the back door.WUAHAHAH!

Or maybe I could just finish the paper super fast and head home.

OH YA! the reason I didn't go also because I can't drive myself there. So, my birthday is on January, the first thing I wanna do is to get my license for sure. So no problem if I want to go anywhere I want anymore. ! Wahahaha!

Easy solution EVER!!!!

Tee Hee !

Korean Stars .

I know every people in the world, every each person loves korea. Not to forget me, I love them so much too. I love to watch their drama more than their songs. Because it feels like they own the musical world now after Holywood and Bolywood .

Thats not it. One of the reasons are their faces. Its beauty like an angel, the guys are hansome like hell.

Well, sorry to say but they cheat on this. Plastic surgery on all those faces. Almost everyone in korea have plastic surgery. They even give it as birthday present . How amazing is that?? But one slight thing, I might fear this could come to side effect. So, I wish the best for those who use this stuff. I too am an ugly person, I feel I'm fat as a pig, ugly like the beast when ever I look in the mirror. So what I thought is about having plastic surgery just like them. So I could be beautiful as always. But then my mum said to me thats just my illusion . I'm no near them or maybe alittle. But I still can survive can I.

Tee Hee , so heres an advice, think carefully when ever your about to do something that can change you forever.

I just realize I know not much of my schoolmates. I used to...well I thought I know everyone of them..well just the face counts. But today I theres a lot of juniors and same form as me that I don't know. call me an ass hole cause I deserve it. If I were them, I sure will hate myself. "How could you! NOT knowing me?" "Hey bitch I've been spying on you and you still haven't notice me?" "Hi, I have be friend with you on facebook..do you know me? my class is just next to yours"

Hell all of this just makes me crazy ! I know no one of you..sorry.

But I will try harder next year, for it is my last year of school.

Tee Hee guess this is for today. I got to pack . Sleepovers at my aunt's new big house :D

Psychotic .

I almost forgot to tell you this . .. I have a psychotic chasing after me. Well, not really chasing running. He likes me like hell. Don't when to quite although I've rejected him quite many times. He sure is tough. His mentally , I think has left the building. For not knowing the word embarrassed . How could YOU! trying to ruin my life. Sure I'm thankful for you liking me. But this is too much man ! Have you no life?? no goals in life?

I think your a player. Because I've done my own research . You are still in love with your Ex . You date THAT girl just because I rejected you, just to make me feel jealous . Know thats not working you break up with her then . Shes our junior! Why! Why do you even play with that girls heart? Man You ARE REALLY PISSING ME OFF HERE!!!

FOR THE MENS LIKE THIS OUT THERE... GIRLS ARE NOT TOYS!!!! I REPEAT ! GIRLS ARE NOT TOYS !

So right now I'm ignoring him.. sure takes a lot of time. But seems today he has stop disturbing me?? hmm....adding to this..because I ignore him.. I think he tell his best friend and his best friend message me next. But I know that trick and I am not gonna fall for it again. P.S. I fall for it and been force to talk to the lunatic again. Ignore Ignore Ignore Ignore .HAHA hey I really don't care bout you anymore....hmm? ... yes I kinda started to like him since his being sweet and mushhy to me. Who wouldn't fall for it.. And yes its hard to ignore some messages. But hey, IHAVE done it! he truely have given up ! Ahahahah ..... now....back to school in another 2 weeks..what if I face him? he usually know where I work doing recess ...ergghhh wanna quit , but I just started :'(

Hmmm....Guess hoping he has fully forgot about me then :)

Happy thoughts , happy thoughts

Tee hee <3

Memory of somebody.

Listen closely and you will hear all this while someone has been whispering to you. Don't ask me if its the devil or the angel . Your old enough to figure it out. Or else how on earth do you found this blog, smart kid.

No matter what you do , remember, Allah is always with you. Night and day . Dead and alive . You name it :)

All people just couldn't stop lying..

I know a person just told someone that they have delete, or close , or what ever...their blog..

I just believe it without any doubt . And later I will find out that it is all fake fake, dishonest, Selfish !

Sometimes I wonder why can't this world be fill with nice happy people. In fact some badass is here lying right in our faces like hell who the fuck does they think they are .. Fuck to those people. AhHAHAHAH !

Work for the Holiday

Just finish my work. End of the project. Can't really say how much I realive . It takes hard work. But then hard work brings a lot of money. hihi .

Sure I don't get it yet. But Thats worth of waiting . haha . Blog another time.

Twitter

Hi guys !

Its been so long .. I know , Iknow .. I've been so busy lately ..

But ....

Good news !

I have just Made my own Twitter !! It is fun . I kinda like it . I usually write there more bout my update feelings . But not to worry .. I still haven't forget my precious blog : )

Later , GTG . KIT <3

Mom's Spaghetti Recipe

1- Cut the onion into square shape sizes . *and also garlic (3)

2-Tumis

3-Add in cutted meat.. *Unfreeze it first

4-Tomato purry .

5- Water ,add button mushroom * cut half .

6-Add salt

7-Black Pepper

Missing you

Ooh my friends...

I miss the heck out of you guys.

This world is too much for me to handle..wish you were here to talk to me, to give me wisdom when time in need. The things that happen is just test from Allah.

That I can barely carry.. I need a friends hand to help me lift it for all my heart.. the truth is I miss you guys!

I actually can carry it.. just i miss the way how you talk , how you use to treat me with comfort..

And your lovable smile..

I felt sad when I saw your picture in your new house...On your blog,theres too much things you said about your fresh new live. Where theres no me..

Besides that, i notice one thing about you that suddenly change me...

That smile...

I can see it again..

If then..i wish the happiest journey for you .

Good Bye my Friend .

Funeral Of A Beloved Uncle.

Today my beloved uncle just pass away..

It was a shocking news for me and also for the rest of the family.

The day before he die. He was sent into the ICU.

All of the family members come to visit him.

When I was about to get up on 6.20 a.m.

I got a call from my mum saying he is gone..The first word just felt like "ARE YOU KIDDING?"

So I got up to prepare myself and my little sister.

It was so sad for my cousin who is the olderst age 14 years old.

She has 5 siblings..The youngerst is about 2 or 3 years old..

For all the muslims out there..

I pity the mother who has to serve her 5 children who already lost they father..At such young age..

Please donate for him Al-Fatihah ...amin

Against Cruelty Towards Animal !

Today on 16 Oct. 2011 .

I have heard a lot of cases about cruelty towards animal especially cats..

It made me sad went I heard the killers were human who just can't accept whatever they are doing. Letting the anger out towards kids are bad(Have been A big issue about it)

So, what I thought...Putting the anger on cats are easier for them.It won't fight you back, you can kill it without feeling like you killing someone..in fact it feels like reaping of you dolls hand.

This are the minds of a Loonatic ..I hope non of this lost human are here..but i was wrong when I heard here,in my own country,was a case too..I found out in Mastika. Damn those fools ! They shouldn't be alive right now..Couse I know people will beat them up ..If they know whos the culprit .

THOSE WHO MURDER CATS ARE PEOPLE WITH NO HEART !!

Biology Has leak Out!

Today while I was wall to wall on my facebook..I accidently saw a leak question on my classmate's wall !! OMG!

The one who post that post was my friend . How dare she did not even tell me that juicy information??

Tomorrow morning I am so gonna charge in front of her and shes better have a good excuse ..BETTER!

ATTENTION TO ALL MUSLIM !

I have found this on my facebook and wish to share it with all of you..

ATTENTION!! this is not a verse of the Quran ...

IMPORTANT ... please spread the word. May Allah will reward your good offices.
One thing for sure ............ this is not a verse of the Quran

May we all be careful not to UNINTENTIONALLY and hung in our homes. Spread the word and tell all our brothers.

Please read. Don't fooled by those who disbelieve.

Note that saw the end write "Surah Injilu Matay" (Direct rejects).

Please read and distributed to anyone who has no blog via e-mail. If you have a blog, copy and paste to your blog. That is the agenda of the Christian, then be careful.

Do not be deceived in her appearance but also look and content out what. Look at the whole. Of course it looks good if made ​​to adorn the walls of the house.

At first glance like the verse and the word Al-Quran. Actually, the verse from the Bible.

Human who LOVEs ISLAM,
-stryder-

(spread)

Label games

Today on 27 Sep 2011 ,

I have learnt a new game play by lots of teenagers here.

It is call .. .. .. ermm.. we'll get back on that..

the main thing is "HOW " you play it.

You pick two countries and say this country has this , this country has that..

Example = I usually will pick my own nation , Malaysia and .. .. let me see , Japan ? Okay .

One group choose Malaysia and the other one Choose Japan.

Its fun playing with friends .. Especially during sleep overs .

Start > Malaysia has KLCC .

Japan has Tower .

Malaysia has Upin&Ipin .

Japan has Doremon .

Malaysia has Sultan .

Japan ermm .. has.. ermm ..

Have fun learning them ><.

Najwa Latif

This is a girl found her way to success through Youtube. (great another one)

Am starting to think to ditch this blog and became a youtuber . Hihihi .. kiding >.<

I like this catchy song..Listen to it every time never gets old ..huu huu

http://youtu.be/9fKVNb-dYVc

She sings the best song for this month...And hoping she stays there..

I hope you all get to know her just how you get to know Hana Tajima .

Do you know ?

Every one of you are very precious to voting them . haha !

So don't let them waiting :D

Perfection .

Everybody wants me to be perfect .

Perfect this , perfect that .

If I'm not perfect , you all always look down on me..

With all the nicknames you gave me..I will not let you put my spirit down..

Bibik! Bibik! Bibik! Is that all you can think of?

What The Fucking Do You think I am ?

What have I done to you ?

Why do you HAVE to say it?

Isnt it enough ? How much longer do you intend to hurt me?

I got the feeling you tell your kids to hate me too.

Cause that one brat always kicking and punching me..

Have you no heart ?!

Of all you said and did..I never Ever hold grudge on you.

I always rethink in the most positive way I can .

Although deep in side of me are shading tears..

What do you know..

Yesterday when you said all your friends said was I bibik?

I don't know wherether to belive you or not.

My cousin said not to..cause you like to tease me..

Let me tell you something you don't know.. 'Thats NOT nice'

When it comes to outside beauty , I no close to perfect , or by your side of thinking , I'm no close to average.

Of all you thinking , have you ever look in the mirror?

Your no close yo perfect too..

Its like :

A fat boy says to another normal boy "fat"

What The Hell !

Want to borrow my mirror?

But today I just spend 24 hour with cubby kids.. At first I thought their gonna say bad things to me..So I got to prepare..

But then at the end of the day, I was wrong..They are nice.

They are nicer than you.

Hmph!

Why....

I'm writing this down to let out my feelings..

I thought I was strong enough , prepare enough , but I guess I'm just small tiny useless , UGLY girl...

This post has no meaning to involve anyone at all.

" They all want me to be perfect,

But what can I do If I'm just not perfect ,

I'm just human , so

STOP PUSHING ME"

Lovely Sweetsss

Today my mum just recommend a sweet cookies that we can buy through 0nline..Though that sales person just live in Kota Damansara.

What she sells ??

She sells dreamy cookies and not other than, macaroons !

I love them so damn much..Its A dream come through for me to taste it. I heard when it get to your tounge, it feels like your in heaven . Hahaha .

My mum said shes gonna buy it..Although Eid is on the end..she still thinks on buying them..Oh Man . just think how fat I'll be.. hee hee :)

Oh! and also..She sells this refreshing creamy stuff in A JAR. The purpose was it for 'Gift In A Jar'

I'm gonna buy that too ;)

http://lauramacarons.blogspot.com/

Fashionista !

Today I was blog walking and to my extend I saw this Oh-som! blog.

Shes A Fashionista name Shia , age 21 and I love so MUCH her dressing.

She mix n' match her cloths..I always do that too, when seeing my friends.

Because of her uniqe style ..

She wears hijab and I think shes gonna be the next be thing , the next Hana Tajima.

The next I-con !!

If you guys would like to check her out..heres a link on her blog..Wish you all will 'like' her as much as I do.. http://www.myamethyst-shea.com/

A guy.

Okay, heres the topic for today.

A guy that has been chit chating with me have just ask me for my number.. but afraid not, I would not give him anything... Its not like me to talk to strangers..but after my friend keep on giving me advice on not to be too close about this stuff...ya. I try for it.. But i would not fall for any cheesy sweety flirty talk. Every time he saids it, I would like totally laugh out loud. Man, whats up with this guy.. does he think I'm that easy? Hmph!

Anyway, heres and advice NEVER to compromise with pleasure-seeking guys.

Stay safe okay, to all the girls out there. <3

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin you all!

Am so so so so sorry for the long wait..I havent got the chance to touch my lappy.. coz the wifi is hair wire !

Its been long.. But heres some pictures if you want to see me 'raya' a.k.a Happy Eid ! <3

I wanna say thanx to all my misterious readers out there who support me in this blog (i had no idea why you like this uncool blog)

But Thank You and keep reading , kay. But ofcourse you have to follow me to catch up on latest.

huu huu (like promoting my own blog)

Any how .. enjoy <3 :)

P.S : thats me and my mum.. And sorry for the bad posting picx :)

Bulan Ramadan al-Mubarak !!

Happy Fasting Month !! :D

I'm so so so so so sorry for any mistakes I've done to anyone ...

I'm so sorry, sometimes I just got carried away by my ass feelings..teenagers , what the hell can you say :)

Anyway, just wanna say my recent activities have alot of bad word... I feel naughty..

Once again , Selamat Hari Ramadan Al-Mubarak !!! <3 <3 <3

I hate youtube members..

I hate youtube members who likes to put unnecessary videos..

You think it will be Da Bomb! But its actually not!

Only perverts will watch your stupid ass hole videos!

Other than this, it'll make our...sorry , MY country sucks and full with men and dirty thoughts.

How can I live like this when I know when I go outside its dangerous.. Guys rating us by boops.

I'm writing this down becouse I was just searching for Pink the singer as song Perfect. And suddently two human making love on bed. WTF!!

Thanx for my quick hand I quickly wrote SS501 and press "ENTER".

And that dirty American stuff are gone.. Phiiuuhh...

Ass Hole Brother :D

Aaaarrrhhhggg ! what is up with my stupid ass hole brother??

Some times I wonder if his period...

Come on, aren't you agree?

He can be sometimes such a bitch HAHAHAHA !!

Serves him for having bad blood all over his face ... :D

With love from ME ! <3

Pure Pressure.

Tonight I realize the one who have been keeping me low, keeping my spirit's low, making me timid of the world... Its all their FAULT !

I hate them!!! So daMN much !! She is a fucking bitchie ! Go to Hell for all I care. And I hate little kids because you all ARE crazy ass hole .

My cousens,this is all I have to say until you make any hurtful things in the future.

YOU don'y know what in the hell i'v been through after you're unlicense mouth speak.

Go die lah BOHSIA !

You'r so good with words until I can't find what I'm so angry bout.

Or maybe I just choose to NOT belive . After all you done to me...I still consider you as apart of my family...

I don't want too write here what you'v said to me..

F.Y.I not because of you,okay. Its just so in the future I wont hurt myself remembering what you said...

I just want to forget this all and act like nothing happen...

After I press PUBLISH POST , THis memory will erase. ChaiYonK !!! :D

STOP with the post pone already !

I was relive when I thought the present will end today with nervous out of the way. I can focus with the novel my friend making. You know, to help friend, you got to be mean, Comment them.

But anyway, it didn't happen that day. Just because some my teac has to go through an inspect and we just have to sit down and act smart..(to help teac)

Yesterday I'v gone to 2 days 1night camp.. Thought of not coming. But for the justice and MOM wants me to not truant so easily just because I want to go camping and loss so much energy.

OMG ! my teac just lie to me, and now am stuck with this boring camping..theres no outdoor activity and the only thing that makes us sweaty was just morning exercise..Well, thats because the programmer is an old guy. :(

But after i got back...I got something very precius . I got confident even more :D

On top of the world right now...

So, when I present today, I was not really nervous AT ALL !

Am loving it.

Plus, I increase my friendship .

AHhhh!! :D

Bahasa Malaysia Presentation .

Tomorrow is gonna be a tough day for me.
As you know am a very shy gurl. Can't defense myself from fights..Or even talking in front of people. That's scary !!
But I just gonna suck it up and face the world.. I know I have to do it sooner or later.
I've always been worrying on how I'll turn out to be if I keep on like this..
So, wash my face with lots of water until you can see no sign of my identity..huu huu..
Guess that'll work? nahh..
I need something bigger,right ?
huhh...huhh...
Facing the world is harder than I thought it'll be.
I REALLY really really want to know the secrets on how 'that person ' has no shame??
I want to buy it too !!!!!!

July first

MY mum's birthday is on that special day.

To celebrate it, my dad brought us to sleep in Kuala Lumpur. Just to experience the night side of that crazy town. Since it is at the center of Malaysia, that is the most pack with people.

I thought at night will be the same. But that city sleeps as you would not know.

How surprising it is to know its quite at night.

I was on the look out for any 'rempit' to be around.. but to my surprise, non.

I felt pity for those tourist who thinks this is 'MALAYSIA' .

I mean, why would they go there to feel MALAYSIA ?

Theres other good places. Such Pangkor..

Although, it is fun living in Kuala Lumpur once in a while... hihi

Oh Ya!

am not at school right now couse my mum over slept.. huhu

Thursday, 23/6/2011

Today were a 'heavy duty' day of this week. The only thing I do is learn non stop with my friends.

Talk about loads of heavy subjects today.

But am really feeling lonely just now... I can't really explain it clearly to you guys , but as this one friend of mine always feels been isolate by her group friends didn't came to school today..Even if she doesn't know that I also been experiencing this feelings ... but am not wiling to show it to her cause thats only gonna burden her more.

Usually I would't treat my feelings of despair so emotionally...

But today my best friend did't came to school to support me, to be by my side...

I also have this feeling of being left out..Saying 'HI' to thin air they would't reply...not even a head up to look at me. That was the time I almost crack ...But thankful there is my other friend that call out to me to eat recess together.(I don't know if she saw my kristal eyes..HOPE not!) but she came to my rescue.

Although, I don't usually feel THIS down. When I realize there was't anyone by my side .....

nothing feels right...just to have that someone sincerely by your side is soooo damn HARD !

I hate my life for the time being...

P.s What I wrote here must not be taken to heart...just a stupid diary thats been done without thoughts.

Beast Contest !

I just enter the BEast contest..

I never been to a korean concert, and its too costly if I enter it with my own money..

So, I thought why use my own money when I can try my luck and win it.

They ask to write a simple slogan...

Heres what I wrote...

I deserve to go to the BEAST concert because I really LOVE K-pop. Every time I hear them sing, I would melt and everything beside me just blur out. Just like in my dream.Every day I only open korean channels such KBS , ONE S , and ANIMAX .

What do you think??

I got a shot?

Hee..

I won't be upset if I don't..

Hang Out ? Friends?

Its always difficult to ask permission..

Am really damn frustrated with my Big family...

their VERY nosy...

Always like to pick their nose everywhere they can get.. !

Try be in my shoes for for a day...

That guy

I never knew I will fall in love with this korean guy.At first all my friends were all over him for some reason..

I was like "eeeiii..WHY would you like him. I mean, do you know whats he talking about? "

no answers..

But then I watch the drama his in.. and I ...

ermm....

I... like him a little now. Not that I'm proud of it, just that his so manly and adorable in there..

For some of you who watch " Boys Over Flowers" then you MIGHT think the same way as I do NOW.

OMG ! his soooo freaking HOT !

His name is Lee Min HO.

And right now am updating myself what is he doing..

Upcoming is his new drama "City Hunter"

Really can't wait for it.. ngee..

But for you out there, do you think I should watch it??

I mean, am still watching Boys Over Flowers.

I don't want to mix the character... It won't be fun... I f you know what I mean... >.< !

Fate

My fate is always been like this.

Meaning, I can't have a boyfriend. lilerly !

I don't even start to think of it, but I got into a mess about this things.

My family likes to elaborate this kind of stuff into some kind of a big matter.

Though, just a guy calling me I got into a REALLY big hot gossip .

My family is so attach to my mum's side that one false move..you're dead.

The big title is ready for you. Its frustrating sometimes that knowing you cannot have a tiny little secret. Couse danger is just right with you.

Korea Dramas

I love you damn much !
Thats why I hate you right now..
Right now is my holiday..
And I'm spending it watching you online..for god sake
I'm bored :'(

My mum ask me to go out with her, but i reject her without any thoughts.
It feels like I'm stuck with the laptop.
How cruel am I. She said its been long that she wants to take me to that place..

This is the worst holiday ever. Talk about I'm the most excited person to have my break..
but this is the out come...
.......someone please help me :'

CRIME

Is that even a word??
Is playing the instrument a bad thing to do?
ofcouse for you morons out there who doesnt like hearing music is a crime to you ears.
I love to play the piano .
But theres no way for me to even TOUCH it.
I wont allow to enter classes
to even learn music deeper..
All thats left for me is just my nick name "blindy in music"
har har har
:'(

cousins

Let me ask
WHY is he so such a freak?
Know why?
HA ha ha
coz his so such a dork.
Keep on saying i'm FAt !
Well guess what?
i'm gonna do some exercise
and see the different.
Although, if your reading this.
F.Y.I am NOT FAt.
Just a tiny belly.
And I hate it too
I know am not that perfect.. but guess what?
so are you !
your a guy.!
and you've over board with your diet..
TOO small fat ass !!

piano

Like wonders.
I love listening to them
every tone it made
only soothing my ears
it always making me cry in silents
sometimes it is so mean to me
I don't want to cry alone
it's too painful
to bear this alone
I love experience my feelings towards U
I almost faint when I listen clearly

I'm so sorry that I can't play you
everyone got their wish as soon as they said they want to play U
while I can just stand behind and put a smiling mask

I really wish that I can play you
but if I start now...
I 'm afraid they will say I copy everyone,bitch

bitches :D

Today theres a science exibition . Me and my friends went there. I've just sign up for the "member of nature" its my dream ! Hiyaaa!!
I've always wanted to be in one. hihihi never thought it'll be this soon .
Although the exibition this year is much smaller than last year. Not much to see :<
But I manage to answer a question .Hahaha, the host ask us to find the answers on the board and I just "resd" it out loud. And guess what??
I won !!
a small note book and a choclate. Very happy man! I think its my rezeki this time. My others friends were so piss off. I don't blame them, they are SMART and all. So, a dumb girl like me to win?! is so out of the picture. (not hurt!)
I'm willing to share the choclate with them. Honest ! Seriusly, you guys are annoying !
I keep on saying "okay,okay, I will share it with you guys." !!!!
I know you hate me for winning and made you the lozers. Hahaha !!!
Let me repeat, cause their smart and I'm NOT.
But let me ask you one thing. Where"s your attitude gone to??
You snatch my choclate and made it trumble? You ALMOST open it..I just stand behind you and keep quite.
I can't belive you ignored my "wait a sec" expression !
Damn you just made my day WORSE !

p.s. the choclate does not look that dreamy, and then why do you look like a dog wanting its bone.

no ones perfect

everybodys different , some annoys you, some keep picking on you , but there are also some that made you happy, some that are nice .
Thats why I have a geng. A colourful geng.
Right now I feel really down.Why does it so hard for me to tell them?
Is it because it has something to do them?
I dont know.. Its frustrating !
Made me feel like we're drifting apart..

feeling lonely huh??

After that day has past, I became unsecure and my confidence are very low.. I had no one to tell to..
At first I wanted to tell my closes friend.. But again she was with someone else. Incase you haven know, we're not in the same class. So every time its recess , she will wait for me.
But now theres this new girl. ergh!
What? I have to eat with her? Since when does this bitch come from??
No way I'm eating dog food with her. HAHA !
Sorry bitch. theres not a lot of room here.

Owh ya !
anyway I ended up telling this girl . We bump into each other that morning and I suddenly said she was sad.So she ended up telling me her story and mine to her.. hmm.. does't seem right.
I know that girl.. And my other BFF is like not talking to her and shes kinda of realize that.

I'm back from Bandung

It was only for three days. And it was still awesome.
If you ask me, I would like, no, love to go again hihi..
The brezze over there is so comfortable. Not too cool, not too hot.Like example in Cameron Highland,Malaysia.
Anyway,theres a lot of Factory Outlet over there.You would't belive how paradise it is over there for me a.k.a. Shop-a-holic .
And I always be offend if someone will ask me wherether I'm an Indon or Malay.
But now I understand, they look just damn same with us Malaysians .
Pretty,handsome,beautiful.
Now I dont need to be embarass anymore.. hee

Have I change??

This week has been so confusing.. huh..
First,my junior cousin has been asking me about boys,-"have you have one?" -"you're old and all." -"I have already" -"last year actually..hee" -"No?? Then how will you survive the future??"
Those are the meaningless cheap talk I ever been in..
And then I've began too attach to my other friend which a.k.a. playgirl..
Don't get me wrong and all, I like friends with her. The only thing here is that I began to follow her. THIS is something I don't like.
I was .. erm.. AND always been a timid girl.
Although I don't actually like being like this, its actually good for me..hmm,hmm.
At first I'm embarrass about this small matter.
But then when I met that person,his not embarrass about this.. His not even try to change himself. And that's why I look up to him...for now..

We're USEd to be close..

My mum is starting to annoyed me.hahh..
We're getting apart every second..whether in the same room, i just can't get along with her..Actually I hate that, so I did try and to talk something out.. f.y.i. it takes all my guts just to say/ask something...
But ALWAYS my line been cut short by her...or no replys at all. I dont like repeating it..if I do, it might get into a worst arguement right??
So I keep silent ..
Why,why?
Am I TOO small to be heard??

Online diary

I know your my online diary, I made you so no one can read you. A.k.a. my mom. I know she keeps on denying she ever read my journal under my pillow. But everytime people talk about my blog.They always say why not let anyone read??
This is just a PLAIN blog where I express my feelings the most.Who I hate at school for today, what happen, what made me cry,feeling depress ? That kind of stuff..
But just now my mum was surprise that I have blog.Am not ,NOT letting her read this. Its actually for her own good haha.
When she found out that I'm not letting anyone read this,she was actually shock.
This how it goes..
Mom "why not letting anyone read your blog?? isn't that the main point of having a blog??"
Me "Well ya, but this is something personal. Only some people can read this. Its full with dark secret, or so."

And the conversation just ended. Right now I'm thinking if wonder I should blow this blog to everybody. But then where should I write the paint full embarasment , right?

They're Amazing !

My mom came soo late today. Really piss off actually . Making me waiting so long. But thank goodness she has an excuse , kena saman rupenye.

But guess what? I've be so long not hearing advice from a human. Haha ! I'm lame, I know. But anyway it made me happy. Finally someone who response to me.
Made a few friends and that one akak is so awesome!
They're all funny, though we just met, it felt like we known each other for so long.
Hihihi ! Todays not a bad day. :D

Exam?? Hahahaha !!

Wanna know why I laugh?
Its easy.. because I don't study. Thought I was gonna fail for my exam.
Thank goodness my sweet, sweet friends was group studying history.And making me listen to them a.k.a. answers to my paper. Hahaha!
I remember it all that got in the paper. First time feeling Awesome after an exam hee~

Later
I saw Eta !! On the way back home . I was in my car.
Hmm.. just realize we did't see each other at all for today.. Miss her already Haha.
Eta, if your reading this..jangan kembang2 haha !

Weird....

They're friendly now !
For the whole day they did't even greet me.
But when I incourage myself to say a word and just walk past through,
but then she stop me and said I was being 'sombong' HUH?? when is that? YOu Bitch! you're the one who have been ignoring me since the first period.

Dear Stupid Friend,

I know what I did was wrong. I took your physic's paper without asking for your permission .. Or so thats what you want to think..

OK readers! Heres the thing, she somehow did't hear me asking for it.. I said I was sorry and immedietly return it to her. Since we're friends,erm, I mean somehow got in the same "geng" would like easily forgive me and forget this small matter, or so I thought.
Hmm, I heard she talks behind my back about that little accident.Somehow, she tries to make this tiny thing into a really big , i mean BIG issue .
She drag along some friends who sits near her..Some how I wonder is my voice too low ..or am I being ignore..
After school we stay back to learn more about Physics with our dearest teacher or shall we call him "usher" .
Our "geng" got separate into half as usual actually ..But I realize something, they never call my name..always a friend next to me... Am I invinsible??
This quite embarasing but I almost shed a tear when I am lonely going up the stairs to classroom.. Its the only one on that floor, so ofcouse .. All my friends are in the second class..When I feel lonely,Eta as usual will always cheers me up even if shes not in my class.. She will ask almost everybody to send her regards to me in class. Although, it only cheers me up for a minute ... I love her for doing that.

Work HArd here i GO!!!

I stay back at school today just so you know..I stay to study physics..ermm, thats how I put it.And that I mean copy every single notes from my friend.. Hey, don't get me wrong..If I don't do this, I'll fail for my physics..
F.Y.I. Half of the marks are from our assignment.

Sebastian Michelis

"kuni kuni "
"Ahh, kuni kuni "
What he said..





I'll translate it for you.. - kuni kuni : soft
He loves cat so DAmn Much !!
HA! Found his weakness..hihihi

B.B (buble butt)

I totally forgot to watch Black Butler yesterday,destracted by black butler online..
I thought of waking up at 3 am for the replay..But I got scare , what if my dad ask why on earth I wake up in the middle of a night for just a cartoon.. I hate people see me as "otakun"
So I did't but then I wont be seeing it sooner..Feeling frustrated !
Hug me.. :,(

~.~

I'm loving Black Butler !!!!!
Sebastian is soo kawaii and cool..
Go check it out !

Fuck U !!!

Why does everybody has to think I'm from indon??
or bibik??
Am I that ugly??
I know someway I thought they were only address me like that because of my dressing, but...
That indon also thought I'm indon right after i wear "Disneyland" shirt to that shop.
All this while she thought of that?? Can you belive that?? EErrggh !
I'm not crying...
Something got in my eyes...
But I'm not denying that my heart is cracking...

twitter

What is that??
I saw my cousin's twitter and it was awesome..Really AwESOME !
A lot of KNOWN artist follow him.
So I try to create my own,which turn out really hard to make frends there.. amatur
huhuhuhh
need help...please

science class

Am really getting use to that class..Huh..
Still remember the first day I step my foot in that class..
Full with snort nose. Erm, sorry if any people from that class reads this. But hey, who ask you to even open my blog,right?
Getting along with the girls,missing our class clown(who move to MRSM) Big WOOP for him...I pray for his success . Well, if you people don't know him, his actually a naughty boy but with kind heart..Hmm, only people who try to understand him will only know.
But before he went out, he wears this fabulus spect,google brand..
Opps !
How does this post turn to him?
hihi..anyway,getting my butt work out for this year. Wish luck <3

'OUR LIFE IS JUST A TURNING WHEEL'

Okay,here's a thing. After the pmr exam,my granny ask my mum to make sure i apply for MRSM. SO i only apply for that only..
I was not hopping any answer for this things, coz i know i wont get it right??
Like WHO 6A's and 2B's will get it !
PLus I'm a girl.HARDER.

But now alot of my friends are gonna move to every where.Most closest ones are not the same class.. I feel so alone...
Its true what the adults always says... 'OUR LIFE IS JUST A TURNING WHEEL'

My hard life in form 1 is coming back to hunt ME!!!