A goodbye.

This maybe my last update. Because this year I am gonna take my big exam and I have too many stuff to do.

I may stop my blog , but YOU have to go on. Keep on writing and express everything there. Cause I know one stop doesn't mean all stop.

So, Tee Hee :)

Sayonara , Assalammualaikum :)

No secrets in the family.

Tonight I just found out my mum have been stalking my blog. HOW embarrassing it is.. Not to forget how rude! No privacy much?

She said bout I'm sad & cry 'cause my sister.. So i check the blog again and she totally got it all wrong. I guess all of you guys out there doesn't get it too huh...

Well... MOM . If you're reading this now. I say please PLEASE DO NOT CONTINUE .

TeeHee

A NOTE FOR MUM.

My birthday was on 20th January

So on that day, I had a blast.. so many surprises that I can't take it anymore :)

That morning, we had our 'merentas desa' I ran as a birthday girl.Woohoo!

When I got to class, my boy classmate sang me a birthday song and I was like SHOCK! He rose his voice so that everyone else follow him..My face was red like roses.. but he keep on singing.. Oh how sweet was it. For the birthday present, he gave me the cookie he got for winning the merentas desa.hahahah -''-

This must sound weird isn't it? for a boy to do that much for me? Well, heres a catch. His my stalker's best friend..so basically I know why he sang it out loud so people outside can hear..Its like making a signal to come on in... The stalker is stupid to be in my class *sorry...

Then later that evening, my mum brought me to my aunt's new house. I thought all my relatives would be there to celebrate or something..but when we got there..I was wrong..there were no car around and it was kinda lame..My aunt cooked simple kuewtiaw...we ate it outside the house beside the lake...how AWESOME is that house. Envy, Envy, ENVY!

While I was daydreaming finishing my food, then someone sang 'Happy Birthday' with the cake towards me...ulalala~

I thought they didn't want to celebrate it this year...but I was wrong..my mum sure loves making surprises for me.

TeeHee :)

Only my geng friends didn't wish for me..I'm just afraid they're up to something that will totally make me embarrassed. Hmmm..heart keep on pumping <3

Worries every girl would have..

Hi, first thing i would like to tell is I Am A Girl. hahahaha like you wouldn't know that..

I'm seventeen this year and I have to face the biggest exam of my life in Malaysia. All this have pressure me even more when I think it all through. This isn't even in the middle of the year..its january PEOPLE!!

My social skill have decreases ..I know this cause today when I went to school, none of those people I know..except those who are famous enough to show their faces to me.. To appoint the next president for the sejarah & geografi club.. Was such an embarrassing moment ever. Just a few students who voted me..well..I don't blame them..they don't know me and I don't know them.. but I still got a position though . Note To Self : Must be more socialize with other people, doesn't matter if they are younger than you. But one thing for sure..I disgrace those who friend with me just to get close to someone or just to get famous..you know, being friends with the seniors and all...

Heres one scene. After school, I ask my grandpa to stop by at the book shop to buy me a fail for my subjects. Then, i saw this girl and her sister who I know because of my friend,a.k.a. the friendliest person on earth..'friend' with them.. I was motivated to say something when they said hi to me..but it all went dull cause she started with a stupid joke fact..That side of social, me, 0%.

I have told my mum how I hate it to be like this..I want everyone to know and like me too..not just people I know, the one that I don't know to would be great.

Its very important to get votes from those people..but what so ever, whats gone, is gone. The election was over and I do get a position in a NOT famous way.

WHAT EVER!

Readers, my second problem, *other than studies... my english are getting worst. Aren't it? Please do read, and leave a comment.. I'm sure love to read them and improve myself...

I think my english is bad now a days because me blogging while trying to remember what I want to write..is so hard.. it feels like my head had inflated ..

Even me myself I can't seem to understand what I've wrote.hahaha.

Tee Hee,

Leave a comment for me please :)

Your help are so appreciate .

I find it romantic

I've been following this program for awhile...or should I say this anime.

Nodame Cantabile 1 , Paris + Finale .

The girl is so energetic , weird but so talented. And adored her senior,also known as crush.

She keeps on hanging around this senior's life although he keep on pushing her away, calling her weird, reject, and all those kind of stuff but in a nice way.

He who knows only about music and carrier and not give a damn bout love or social life.

Then came this girl to his life, soon I found out his falling for her back but hard to tell that.

I totally envy THAT kind of girl..who isn't shy to do what ever she wants until she gets it.. Thank goodness she isn't the annoying type . hahaha

I wish I could be like that, I mean, bee able to talk to the person I like, love, fall for...so 'he' could fall for me.

To tell the truth, I'm afraid to face up with boys..they just give me the goose bumps . Have no idea how. Maybe the opposite sex makes it clear.hahaha.

Anyway, what if a guy I don't like fall for me??

A playboy just wants to play with me??

Not hansom guy??

Not MY TYPE ?!!

What am I to do?? Aaaarrrhhhh

I'm thinking to deep... all because my annoying ass hole cousin I guess.. They said , if I don't shake this attitude off...i'll be anakdaratua (ADT)

let the malay people know...its too embarrassed .

I almost cry you know.. funny how I like to say marriage eeewwww when I was still in kindergaten .

But now my eyes are open for this kind of stuff...everybody does...

So, as you know.. I did try to speak up with boys..it went hairwire hahahha.. funny how easy to play with guys heart... I found out if your being to nice to this one boy, then he will think YOU like him.. errghhh...like theres nothing else I can like.. please! wake up! who would want to fall for you! especially when your a playboy!

okay, the story have gotten away from the title.hahaha

But this is still a love story ;D

Although, even if I'm a boy..in his shoes.. > a girl being nice to this one boy..only one or two..

It is weird..BUT HELLO!! A girl starts to talk slowly..not all every boys I can handle...one at a time! So sorry boys if you think that way..

Its again my Ass Hole cousin's fault...(wonder if she sneeze )hahahaha

She said try talking to boys more,practice makes perfect...its like an advice you usually hear to practice a kiss ' kiss a pillow first' eeewwww!!

Anyhow, thats all for what I could think of now.. Don't know why I went so blank whenever i try to blog..hmmm

Tee Hee I'm GETTING OLD! ;D

What it meant when tears roll.

Today I cry a lot... so damn embarrassed ..I'm not the type that cries alot,big baby.. Infact, I did try to cover it up .but turns out my mouth made this sound that is obviously a crying one.

I cry because of my feet hurts. I have to clean it every time I get them wet..like in the showers for example. When I said I have to 'clean' them, it means scrub them till 'nanah' are gone..other meaning, can see your blood or meat..huhu how awful and gross that sounds. Then when I start crying,I started to flash back one of my memories,the bad ones.. I can't forget how I feel people hate me.. the one that I love, like mom..Ya sure she hugged me when I cry earlier..but I didn't respond to her,even worst, I turn my head. Now I totally regret it. It wasn't what I want. It feels like I wasn't love enough than my brothers..(why , where does this awful thoughts came from)

I have this feeling that I miss my mum, and the one sitting there wasn't her. I know shes in there somewhere deep down inside of her. If you must know, she change a lot when having my lil sis. I know she always give me excuses when shes being totally unfair treating us all.. because shes old now and can't stand kids crying...oh COME ON!

I feel like running away from home...errgghh living with distressful family is not very pleasant .

I need.... A VACATION from all this.. not running away from home..just wanna escape from all this even for a lil while..

hmm...anyway, my heart is still unstable..so, other meaning I will immediately cry if anything sad came across me.

I must hold on no matter what.. just now I look at my friends facebook and I don't quite like them.haha his very annoying and think his all that.ppffftt what ever ass hole.

Tee hee..

I wrote this without crying..so, sorry if you can't feel the emotion in it..or, I can't feel it to. Thats because I have just finish watch my hilarious cartoon.hahaha.Iknow, I know, Too old?? NEVER!!