STOP with the post pone already !

I was relive when I thought the present will end today with nervous out of the way. I can focus with the novel my friend making. You know, to help friend, you got to be mean, Comment them.

But anyway, it didn't happen that day. Just because some my teac has to go through an inspect and we just have to sit down and act smart..(to help teac)

Yesterday I'v gone to 2 days 1night camp.. Thought of not coming. But for the justice and MOM wants me to not truant so easily just because I want to go camping and loss so much energy.

OMG ! my teac just lie to me, and now am stuck with this boring camping..theres no outdoor activity and the only thing that makes us sweaty was just morning exercise..Well, thats because the programmer is an old guy. :(

But after i got back...I got something very precius . I got confident even more :D

On top of the world right now...

So, when I present today, I was not really nervous AT ALL !

Am loving it.

Plus, I increase my friendship .

AHhhh!! :D

Bahasa Malaysia Presentation .

Tomorrow is gonna be a tough day for me.
As you know am a very shy gurl. Can't defense myself from fights..Or even talking in front of people. That's scary !!
But I just gonna suck it up and face the world.. I know I have to do it sooner or later.
I've always been worrying on how I'll turn out to be if I keep on like this..
So, wash my face with lots of water until you can see no sign of my identity..huu huu..
Guess that'll work? nahh..
I need something bigger,right ?
huhh...huhh...
Facing the world is harder than I thought it'll be.
I REALLY really really want to know the secrets on how 'that person ' has no shame??
I want to buy it too !!!!!!

July first

MY mum's birthday is on that special day.

To celebrate it, my dad brought us to sleep in Kuala Lumpur. Just to experience the night side of that crazy town. Since it is at the center of Malaysia, that is the most pack with people.

I thought at night will be the same. But that city sleeps as you would not know.

How surprising it is to know its quite at night.

I was on the look out for any 'rempit' to be around.. but to my surprise, non.

I felt pity for those tourist who thinks this is 'MALAYSIA' .

I mean, why would they go there to feel MALAYSIA ?

Theres other good places. Such Pangkor..

Although, it is fun living in Kuala Lumpur once in a while... hihi

Oh Ya!

am not at school right now couse my mum over slept.. huhu

Thursday, 23/6/2011

Today were a 'heavy duty' day of this week. The only thing I do is learn non stop with my friends.

Talk about loads of heavy subjects today.

But am really feeling lonely just now... I can't really explain it clearly to you guys , but as this one friend of mine always feels been isolate by her group friends didn't came to school today..Even if she doesn't know that I also been experiencing this feelings ... but am not wiling to show it to her cause thats only gonna burden her more.

Usually I would't treat my feelings of despair so emotionally...

But today my best friend did't came to school to support me, to be by my side...

I also have this feeling of being left out..Saying 'HI' to thin air they would't reply...not even a head up to look at me. That was the time I almost crack ...But thankful there is my other friend that call out to me to eat recess together.(I don't know if she saw my kristal eyes..HOPE not!) but she came to my rescue.

Although, I don't usually feel THIS down. When I realize there was't anyone by my side .....

nothing feels right...just to have that someone sincerely by your side is soooo damn HARD !

I hate my life for the time being...

P.s What I wrote here must not be taken to heart...just a stupid diary thats been done without thoughts.