A goodbye.

This maybe my last update. Because this year I am gonna take my big exam and I have too many stuff to do.

I may stop my blog , but YOU have to go on. Keep on writing and express everything there. Cause I know one stop doesn't mean all stop.

So, Tee Hee :)

Sayonara , Assalammualaikum :)

No secrets in the family.

Tonight I just found out my mum have been stalking my blog. HOW embarrassing it is.. Not to forget how rude! No privacy much?

She said bout I'm sad & cry 'cause my sister.. So i check the blog again and she totally got it all wrong. I guess all of you guys out there doesn't get it too huh...

Well... MOM . If you're reading this now. I say please PLEASE DO NOT CONTINUE .

TeeHee

A NOTE FOR MUM.

My birthday was on 20th January

So on that day, I had a blast.. so many surprises that I can't take it anymore :)

That morning, we had our 'merentas desa' I ran as a birthday girl.Woohoo!

When I got to class, my boy classmate sang me a birthday song and I was like SHOCK! He rose his voice so that everyone else follow him..My face was red like roses.. but he keep on singing.. Oh how sweet was it. For the birthday present, he gave me the cookie he got for winning the merentas desa.hahahah -''-

This must sound weird isn't it? for a boy to do that much for me? Well, heres a catch. His my stalker's best friend..so basically I know why he sang it out loud so people outside can hear..Its like making a signal to come on in... The stalker is stupid to be in my class *sorry...

Then later that evening, my mum brought me to my aunt's new house. I thought all my relatives would be there to celebrate or something..but when we got there..I was wrong..there were no car around and it was kinda lame..My aunt cooked simple kuewtiaw...we ate it outside the house beside the lake...how AWESOME is that house. Envy, Envy, ENVY!

While I was daydreaming finishing my food, then someone sang 'Happy Birthday' with the cake towards me...ulalala~

I thought they didn't want to celebrate it this year...but I was wrong..my mum sure loves making surprises for me.

TeeHee :)

Only my geng friends didn't wish for me..I'm just afraid they're up to something that will totally make me embarrassed. Hmmm..heart keep on pumping <3

Worries every girl would have..

Hi, first thing i would like to tell is I Am A Girl. hahahaha like you wouldn't know that..

I'm seventeen this year and I have to face the biggest exam of my life in Malaysia. All this have pressure me even more when I think it all through. This isn't even in the middle of the year..its january PEOPLE!!

My social skill have decreases ..I know this cause today when I went to school, none of those people I know..except those who are famous enough to show their faces to me.. To appoint the next president for the sejarah & geografi club.. Was such an embarrassing moment ever. Just a few students who voted me..well..I don't blame them..they don't know me and I don't know them.. but I still got a position though . Note To Self : Must be more socialize with other people, doesn't matter if they are younger than you. But one thing for sure..I disgrace those who friend with me just to get close to someone or just to get famous..you know, being friends with the seniors and all...

Heres one scene. After school, I ask my grandpa to stop by at the book shop to buy me a fail for my subjects. Then, i saw this girl and her sister who I know because of my friend,a.k.a. the friendliest person on earth..'friend' with them.. I was motivated to say something when they said hi to me..but it all went dull cause she started with a stupid joke fact..That side of social, me, 0%.

I have told my mum how I hate it to be like this..I want everyone to know and like me too..not just people I know, the one that I don't know to would be great.

Its very important to get votes from those people..but what so ever, whats gone, is gone. The election was over and I do get a position in a NOT famous way.

WHAT EVER!

Readers, my second problem, *other than studies... my english are getting worst. Aren't it? Please do read, and leave a comment.. I'm sure love to read them and improve myself...

I think my english is bad now a days because me blogging while trying to remember what I want to write..is so hard.. it feels like my head had inflated ..

Even me myself I can't seem to understand what I've wrote.hahaha.

Tee Hee,

Leave a comment for me please :)

Your help are so appreciate .

I find it romantic

I've been following this program for awhile...or should I say this anime.

Nodame Cantabile 1 , Paris + Finale .

The girl is so energetic , weird but so talented. And adored her senior,also known as crush.

She keeps on hanging around this senior's life although he keep on pushing her away, calling her weird, reject, and all those kind of stuff but in a nice way.

He who knows only about music and carrier and not give a damn bout love or social life.

Then came this girl to his life, soon I found out his falling for her back but hard to tell that.

I totally envy THAT kind of girl..who isn't shy to do what ever she wants until she gets it.. Thank goodness she isn't the annoying type . hahaha

I wish I could be like that, I mean, bee able to talk to the person I like, love, fall for...so 'he' could fall for me.

To tell the truth, I'm afraid to face up with boys..they just give me the goose bumps . Have no idea how. Maybe the opposite sex makes it clear.hahaha.

Anyway, what if a guy I don't like fall for me??

A playboy just wants to play with me??

Not hansom guy??

Not MY TYPE ?!!

What am I to do?? Aaaarrrhhhh

I'm thinking to deep... all because my annoying ass hole cousin I guess.. They said , if I don't shake this attitude off...i'll be anakdaratua (ADT)

let the malay people know...its too embarrassed .

I almost cry you know.. funny how I like to say marriage eeewwww when I was still in kindergaten .

But now my eyes are open for this kind of stuff...everybody does...

So, as you know.. I did try to speak up with boys..it went hairwire hahahha.. funny how easy to play with guys heart... I found out if your being to nice to this one boy, then he will think YOU like him.. errghhh...like theres nothing else I can like.. please! wake up! who would want to fall for you! especially when your a playboy!

okay, the story have gotten away from the title.hahaha

But this is still a love story ;D

Although, even if I'm a boy..in his shoes.. > a girl being nice to this one boy..only one or two..

It is weird..BUT HELLO!! A girl starts to talk slowly..not all every boys I can handle...one at a time! So sorry boys if you think that way..

Its again my Ass Hole cousin's fault...(wonder if she sneeze )hahahaha

She said try talking to boys more,practice makes perfect...its like an advice you usually hear to practice a kiss ' kiss a pillow first' eeewwww!!

Anyhow, thats all for what I could think of now.. Don't know why I went so blank whenever i try to blog..hmmm

Tee Hee I'm GETTING OLD! ;D

What it meant when tears roll.

Today I cry a lot... so damn embarrassed ..I'm not the type that cries alot,big baby.. Infact, I did try to cover it up .but turns out my mouth made this sound that is obviously a crying one.

I cry because of my feet hurts. I have to clean it every time I get them wet..like in the showers for example. When I said I have to 'clean' them, it means scrub them till 'nanah' are gone..other meaning, can see your blood or meat..huhu how awful and gross that sounds. Then when I start crying,I started to flash back one of my memories,the bad ones.. I can't forget how I feel people hate me.. the one that I love, like mom..Ya sure she hugged me when I cry earlier..but I didn't respond to her,even worst, I turn my head. Now I totally regret it. It wasn't what I want. It feels like I wasn't love enough than my brothers..(why , where does this awful thoughts came from)

I have this feeling that I miss my mum, and the one sitting there wasn't her. I know shes in there somewhere deep down inside of her. If you must know, she change a lot when having my lil sis. I know she always give me excuses when shes being totally unfair treating us all.. because shes old now and can't stand kids crying...oh COME ON!

I feel like running away from home...errgghh living with distressful family is not very pleasant .

I need.... A VACATION from all this.. not running away from home..just wanna escape from all this even for a lil while..

hmm...anyway, my heart is still unstable..so, other meaning I will immediately cry if anything sad came across me.

I must hold on no matter what.. just now I look at my friends facebook and I don't quite like them.haha his very annoying and think his all that.ppffftt what ever ass hole.

Tee hee..

I wrote this without crying..so, sorry if you can't feel the emotion in it..or, I can't feel it to. Thats because I have just finish watch my hilarious cartoon.hahaha.Iknow, I know, Too old?? NEVER!!

The End Of Holiday.

30/12/2011 .

My break is almost finish..

now study are left . The whole break I've been bored in my house. If not I'll be at my cousin's or grandparent's home. But when I have this injury on my feet, I can't seem to walk around much. All the plans with my friends need to be cancel. Hope I get better tomorrow so that I can RIDE the twin bicycle with My Best Cousin <3 I wouldn't want to let her down.

Anyway, its been days since I'm like this. All I could do is sit down , watch TV, surf the net..

So, basically I'm watching this anime online.. And WOW I'm nearly finishing it. This just show my life is dull . Even on holidays like this :( huhuh

I'm like a zombie now. My brain doesn't work for so long..all I do is stare...bad huh? I know.

So much for my goal for next year..erm,well...I thought of studying a little this december..but seems like december is living me now and fast. Talk about study this break... MY HOMEWORK!! Oh shit I beeter get help..now I remember theres alot and I can't copy it in time to send it !

Aaaarrggghhh!!

Tee Hee . Thats what I get for delaying huh. hmm... ^~^

My Mistake.

Dear readers,

I am sorry if theres been spelling errors or some words that you just can't understand here. I'm just a lil frustrate and I wrote to fast without even read the post before pressing 'post' .

So, I'm sorry guys... I will definately try my best in the future.

Tee Hee , Love you readers. You give me support to right even more.

P.S. I put Avril Lavigne's song as my music here is because my first espression is I'm angry and alot more emo..but hey, now I've move on ...I guess...well,trying :)

Feeling Unwanted hurts.

Feeling unwanted really does hurt. Especially when it came from the ones you love.

I, have always have the stare look over me. My grandma's sisters are not marry. Theres 3 of them,one died when I was so young. So, basically these women have their own favorite .Most is boys. BOYS BOYS BOYS! I don't mind it actually..but please don't show that much to the one here. You both are going on a trip to Singapore and requested only boy.no girls. WHAT A SHAME ON YOU!

Whatever I did are wrong in your eyes. I cut my lil sister's hair cause my mum ask to. I don't need a praise from you ATALL. But you don't have to make that shit face of yours. Its like you disgusted with me.....and F.Y.I that really does hurt me deep.

I wanted you to know..but how I wish my tongue won't curl up and stop me from saying awful things. Respect you I must..I just wanted you to feel how much it hurts me, thats all.

So you know your mistake and never do it again.

Also! criticism me with that other side child(somehow relative to me) SAME age. SAME AGE! So you like to see which is better. Hell this is family that both are the same. Shes not even my cousin..my aunt but same age,my mum's cousin. So don't care!

I prefer the other side family.Although they are not rich or top to trend, kampung a lil. But at least they don't hurt my feelings at all !

Tee Hee !

I AM NOT A SOCIAL GIRL. EVEN TO MY BIG FAMILY.. *IThinkINeedHelp?

A Gift for a friend.

So, today I bought a gift for my dear friend. To tell the truth, we're not that close to each other. Lets say its just an excuse for me to go and meet up with my long lost friend...kinda like that..haha.

We search everywhere for the perfect present. We heard the birthday girl likes Pooh. So we want a very big Pooh so she can hug it in her dreams or so we plan. The birthday girl has a very small body . Well, small enough for a high school girl. But what the heck.

We have our tea time at Chicken Rice Shop,Ninth Evenue . The service is SUPERSLOW! Don't ever go there guys. I've been there before and I thought it will change the better..but I was wrong.. Its a good thing I don't mind sitting there talking with my friends. If not, I'm sure to call the manager or maybe fire them all.WUAHAHAH! like I have the power to do so..hmmm... but it won't hurt to try ,right?

OH YA! my feet have 'nanah' ....ya, ofcause it hurts..so I have a good time sitting down . Incase you never know..I've been sitting and lying all day since last wednesday ...pity me..huhu.

Anyway, moral of the story??

I have fun !! Woohoo! not like last time..I don't really know why I didn't..maybe i'm sored out.

Plus, the party is gonna be a surprise party at alamanda next week. Hope its gonna happen. You know for a 16 year old girl..can't drive..this is a major thing to think through.

Tee hee!

Comic Fiesta Convention 2011

Kyaa!!!

I missed it!

Oh how I wish I was there. I heard its pack with people and some waited in line to get in about 3hours and ended up sold out. Gggrrr!

But the best thing is some cosplayer are standing outsite of the building and the fans can take picture with the cosplayer. What A haven it is to see them real live other from inside the TV. Although the cosplayer are NOT the exact person, and not as cute as they are in the TV, they sure have guts to wear them and show off it to Ota-kun.huhu

Next year I am sure to go there without any dought! With cosplaying myself. Fuhuhu~

I don't care if the date is on my SPM. I'll just sneak out the back door.WUAHAHAH!

Or maybe I could just finish the paper super fast and head home.

OH YA! the reason I didn't go also because I can't drive myself there. So, my birthday is on January, the first thing I wanna do is to get my license for sure. So no problem if I want to go anywhere I want anymore. ! Wahahaha!

Easy solution EVER!!!!

Tee Hee !

Korean Stars .

I know every people in the world, every each person loves korea. Not to forget me, I love them so much too. I love to watch their drama more than their songs. Because it feels like they own the musical world now after Holywood and Bolywood .

Thats not it. One of the reasons are their faces. Its beauty like an angel, the guys are hansome like hell.

Well, sorry to say but they cheat on this. Plastic surgery on all those faces. Almost everyone in korea have plastic surgery. They even give it as birthday present . How amazing is that?? But one slight thing, I might fear this could come to side effect. So, I wish the best for those who use this stuff. I too am an ugly person, I feel I'm fat as a pig, ugly like the beast when ever I look in the mirror. So what I thought is about having plastic surgery just like them. So I could be beautiful as always. But then my mum said to me thats just my illusion . I'm no near them or maybe alittle. But I still can survive can I.

Tee Hee , so heres an advice, think carefully when ever your about to do something that can change you forever.

I just realize I know not much of my schoolmates. I used to...well I thought I know everyone of them..well just the face counts. But today I theres a lot of juniors and same form as me that I don't know. call me an ass hole cause I deserve it. If I were them, I sure will hate myself. "How could you! NOT knowing me?" "Hey bitch I've been spying on you and you still haven't notice me?" "Hi, I have be friend with you on facebook..do you know me? my class is just next to yours"

Hell all of this just makes me crazy ! I know no one of you..sorry.

But I will try harder next year, for it is my last year of school.

Tee Hee guess this is for today. I got to pack . Sleepovers at my aunt's new big house :D

Psychotic .

I almost forgot to tell you this . .. I have a psychotic chasing after me. Well, not really chasing running. He likes me like hell. Don't when to quite although I've rejected him quite many times. He sure is tough. His mentally , I think has left the building. For not knowing the word embarrassed . How could YOU! trying to ruin my life. Sure I'm thankful for you liking me. But this is too much man ! Have you no life?? no goals in life?

I think your a player. Because I've done my own research . You are still in love with your Ex . You date THAT girl just because I rejected you, just to make me feel jealous . Know thats not working you break up with her then . Shes our junior! Why! Why do you even play with that girls heart? Man You ARE REALLY PISSING ME OFF HERE!!!

FOR THE MENS LIKE THIS OUT THERE... GIRLS ARE NOT TOYS!!!! I REPEAT ! GIRLS ARE NOT TOYS !

So right now I'm ignoring him.. sure takes a lot of time. But seems today he has stop disturbing me?? hmm....adding to this..because I ignore him.. I think he tell his best friend and his best friend message me next. But I know that trick and I am not gonna fall for it again. P.S. I fall for it and been force to talk to the lunatic again. Ignore Ignore Ignore Ignore .HAHA hey I really don't care bout you anymore....hmm? ... yes I kinda started to like him since his being sweet and mushhy to me. Who wouldn't fall for it.. And yes its hard to ignore some messages. But hey, IHAVE done it! he truely have given up ! Ahahahah ..... now....back to school in another 2 weeks..what if I face him? he usually know where I work doing recess ...ergghhh wanna quit , but I just started :'(

Hmmm....Guess hoping he has fully forgot about me then :)

Happy thoughts , happy thoughts

Tee hee <3

Memory of somebody.

Listen closely and you will hear all this while someone has been whispering to you. Don't ask me if its the devil or the angel . Your old enough to figure it out. Or else how on earth do you found this blog, smart kid.

No matter what you do , remember, Allah is always with you. Night and day . Dead and alive . You name it :)

All people just couldn't stop lying..

I know a person just told someone that they have delete, or close , or what ever...their blog..

I just believe it without any doubt . And later I will find out that it is all fake fake, dishonest, Selfish !

Sometimes I wonder why can't this world be fill with nice happy people. In fact some badass is here lying right in our faces like hell who the fuck does they think they are .. Fuck to those people. AhHAHAHAH !

Work for the Holiday

Just finish my work. End of the project. Can't really say how much I realive . It takes hard work. But then hard work brings a lot of money. hihi .

Sure I don't get it yet. But Thats worth of waiting . haha . Blog another time.

Twitter

Hi guys !

Its been so long .. I know , Iknow .. I've been so busy lately ..

But ....

Good news !

I have just Made my own Twitter !! It is fun . I kinda like it . I usually write there more bout my update feelings . But not to worry .. I still haven't forget my precious blog : )

Later , GTG . KIT <3

Mom's Spaghetti Recipe

1- Cut the onion into square shape sizes . *and also garlic (3)

2-Tumis

3-Add in cutted meat.. *Unfreeze it first

4-Tomato purry .

5- Water ,add button mushroom * cut half .

6-Add salt

7-Black Pepper

Missing you

Ooh my friends...

I miss the heck out of you guys.

This world is too much for me to handle..wish you were here to talk to me, to give me wisdom when time in need. The things that happen is just test from Allah.

That I can barely carry.. I need a friends hand to help me lift it for all my heart.. the truth is I miss you guys!

I actually can carry it.. just i miss the way how you talk , how you use to treat me with comfort..

And your lovable smile..

I felt sad when I saw your picture in your new house...On your blog,theres too much things you said about your fresh new live. Where theres no me..

Besides that, i notice one thing about you that suddenly change me...

That smile...

I can see it again..

If then..i wish the happiest journey for you .

Good Bye my Friend .